| Don't know who I talk to here lol... |
[Dec. 23rd, 2008|09:13 pm] |
Well, it's been awhile since I've posted here. But, I have something I'm excited about doing. I'm entering into a contest for www.fetlife.com in order to get in the running of winning a bunch of fun free stuff. The prizes in this Kinky Stocking include free DVDs, toys, porn site access, coupons for other toys, and lots of stuff. And, more importantly, the more places I post to talk about it, the more likely I am to win.
There's other fun things, too. Like if anybody I have here is interested in trying to win, just sign up on www.fetlife.com, then go to http://fetlife.com/kinky_christmas_stockings and follow the directions there. Yeah this whole thing reeks of viral marketing...but if I can win stuff by talking about it, then I'll hawk whatever I'm told to :) |
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[Mar. 26th, 2008|03:52 am] |
lol online journals. Sure, I might have said I'd start updating. But I forgot. Got kinda wrapped up in WoW. Then had to quit. After my previous job at Walden Books (where they had that crazy Shadowbox thing), I was let go when the holiday season ended. So I've been out of work since January.
Then I'm thinking I'm not invited to a friend's wedding. I wouldn't doubt it. I'd be terrible at weddings. I'm no good dressing up. Though I do look better now...had some work done. Now I don't -entirely- dread looking in to a mirror. Is kinda hard to eat. That kinda sucks. But I guess I'll get used to it after awhile.
Damn. I figured after the whole dental thing I'd generally be happier. But it's been grinding on me. No job. No school. Kinda sucks. Oh well. That's what these things are for. Posting when you don't feel so great. At least, that's the only time I ever see folks post in them lol. |
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| Work. |
[Dec. 20th, 2007|12:57 pm] |
Well, Work sucks.
We recently got in this wooden case called "The Naruto Shadowbox Edition."
$200. Comes with every Naruto manga released in the US. Comes with a wooden case and sliding glass doors.
God, you've got to -really- like Naruto in order to get that... |
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| Interesting. |
[Dec. 3rd, 2007|05:26 pm] |
Redid an old quiz, who's results can be seen a post below this one.
This one's results are quite different. Interesting.
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| Fuckin' Hell |
[Dec. 1st, 2007|01:03 pm] |
So, 79 Weeks according to the little tally thing. Interesting. Well, as one might tell, I'm not really in to the whole posting thing anymore. Contributes to my own dwelling on the past...which tends to suck a lot. Anyway, anyone who wants to talk to me can do so through this account. I'm just doing it again to keep track of a friend's wedding planning. |
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[May. 9th, 2006|12:57 pm] |
Seems I forgot to type the inclusion of "I'll update for stuff I think is important."
I've checked out a few schools online, gunna get some information sent. JJC still seems the most feasable for my needs...also definately gunna investigate DuPage a bit more. Can't find too much information on admissions, or other crazy things like that (average cost of classes, even). PC has been ruled out due to price...and I don't want to stay in Ohio. Can't seem to get the parents to understand that. Oh well. |
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| "MY BUISNESS....IS DONE." |
[May. 6th, 2006|05:04 pm] |
Holy crap...I can't believe it! An internet connection that doesn't drop every five god damn seconds!
My trip to chicago (read: Joliet) was quite...surreal. I really enjoyed it, thanks to the though-provoking events that occured. From the revelation of my own attention-whore status to the selection of my art and proffession...quite enjoyable.
Now...I know the lyric is "Prick your finger, it is done/The moon has now eclipsed the sun/The angel has spread its wings/The time has come for bitter things."
However, I liked it better when I thought it was:
"Click your fingers, it is done/The moon has now eclipsed the sun/The Angel has spread its wings/The time has come for better things."
Honestly, I'm going to announce my semi-retiring of my public journal. I'll upkeep a private journal...hopefully no one comes looking for it. Though I guess I'm saying that more as an incitement that someone will, but that's a rambling for my private journal. I'll still upkeep this, and read everyone else's stuff...but I just feel the need to make this private. The reason why I'll still have an online one, however, is due to the fact I type about as fast as I can think, and its easier for me to convey thought than with a conventional written journal. I'm not gunna abandon this; when something big happens, I'll announce it. I appreciate everyone who thinks of me as a friend (like Erik, who I don't really even talk to, and Nihja that I just bother when I need help with a Square-Enix game), and hope they continue to do so. |
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| Go ahead and ignore, like how everyone does anyway. Just me thinking. |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|10:33 pm] |
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| | NiN - Right Where It Belongs | ] |
For most of my life, I've driven myself based off of 'important people'. A select few for, whatever reason, I felt the need to be protective of. I can state in hundreds of places where having something important is good...its a drive to do things, to drive one's self. Not specifically people...mabey an ideal, or a feature of yourself. I myself...I can't think of myself. Its utterly impossible for me to be selfish. I think of others near constantly...always wondering how people are, and if there's anything I can do to help them. As of right now, only one of my important people really want anything to do with me. You've no idea how lonely that has made me feel for the past few years. I know I can make friends, given the chance. Such a thing happened at Tri-C with the people who played magic. However my ego got the best of me, and ruined that entire road.
For quite some time, I've been trying to find myself. Adapting to how others want you to be really fucks you up. For those of you who don't remember, I've done it most of my life. Its hard to find who's me in here. Now I don't mean this in some sort of crazy emo way. I really don't know where the real me ends and the lies I've perpetuated begin. It's started small, really. Like my love for comic books. Its taken awhile for me to catch up...I'm going with easy stuff, like the newer manga. I've been trying to keep up with series like Death Note and Lament of the Lamb. I've been keeping my eye out for a new, good X-Men series too. Seems that I've been a little late for that, though. I'm sure a new one will come along eventually.
But really, what would happen to me if my last important person decides to go away? Everything dies. Everything fades. There will be a point where that important person leaves me. Then I'll have nothing to lean on. Nothing thats important to me. Plus also this 'important person' confuses my heart. Since I don't really know love, I have a hard time determining if these feelings I had for those people are conventional love. While I don't think they are, there's no real way to find out. I have friends who aren't important people. Since my Important People are close friends, there really isn't a reason to use that distinguishment. Everyone who is a friend is an important person. Except Paul. He's just an asshole. Though my stupid benevolent nature makes me include him anyway. Stupid Buddhism.
So that's it then, isn't it? I've nobody important. Yet, I have tons of people who are important. I have ideas and plans that, if I focus and concentrate on them, will come to fruitation. The hardest part, though, is telling myself not to worry. I've never really done anything by myself successfully...though thinking of it as I type, that's a lie, isn't it? I cook. I can make wonderful meals for people. Earlier this week I made ravioli. From scratch. I made the noodles by hand. I filled the pasta pockets by hand. I made the sauce by hand. It turned out pretty good. Sure, I'll figure it out. I'll be fine, I'm sure. I'll find someone to love deeply, and someone who loves me that way in return. Someone whom I can do nothing but hold and stay with. Then they'll go away. Things always do. But from my expierence, those little pockets of bliss are heaven in of themself.
"What if all the world's inside of your head
Just creations of your own?
Your devils and your gods
All the living and the dead
And you really are alone
You can live in this illusion
You can choose to believe
You keep looking but you can't find the woods
While you're hiding in the trees" |
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| That's it. I've had it with these snakes! |
[Apr. 22nd, 2006|03:01 am] |
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| | Ramones - Do You Remember Rock & Roll Radio? | ] |
Every time I think about Snakes on a Plane, I think of how hillarious the movie will be. I just can't wait to get my hands on that. Then, I find out they're doing a deathnote movie. One of the best manga I've ever read, in to a live action movie. Its pretty harsh too...the poster has Light looking all evil, with his hand out. Floating above his hand is an apple with a bite taken out of it. Because Shinigami love apples.
Damnit Laurel, I need Todd's number so I can talk to him. Need to tell him about when my plan arrives and all that jazz.
So the day I get in to chicago, Laurel's new boyfriend offered to take me LARPing with him. That frightened me. I love D&D and all that...even Vampire was fun. But LARPing is...it's a scary concept, I can say that. There wouldn't be much else to do in her apartment. I did think about it...I may go, but just watch and stuff. I'll fap to hot Miles Power on Knuckles Echidna action before I take part in LARPing. Not that theres something wrong with people who are in to LARPing...though there is something wrong with people in to like furry crap and stuff...but I really can't picture myself LARPing. Like me cosplaying. That just won't happen unless the stars align just right. I thought about wandering around Joliet for awhile. That could be fun. Laurel says there's nothing there...but hey. I'm a guy who can look at a snowy hill and be entranced for hours. This Todd fellow seems to be a geek as well...I'm sure he'll know where the hobby shops are.
Tired...time for sleep... |
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